<3 me now or <3 me never

Right now, at 3:32AM, I'm sitting on the phone with Mike. He's a new one, wants to be the only one but I'm seeing some traits in him that I don't like already. For instance, he seems like the type that wants me to about him and only him. Like, seriously, what the hell? No. I don't do that 'you are my life and what I breathe' for no man, boy, or companion. But he's nice aside from that, he drives so that's a plus. That sounded real Gold diggerish didn't it? Yeah, I know. But I'm not, I'm just saying it is nice to talk to a man that has a car and something to offer sometimes other than his penis.

Anyway, my mom came home yesterday. She was in the hospital for like three weeks because she had a stroke and I'm responsible for taking care of her until she gets a nurse that can be with her 24/7. Hopefully we'll get one that can be there like that because I start school in June plus I want to get a job since funds are gonna be non-existent at this point. Hell the only reason why I have Internet is because of someone around us. Honestly, I think my family sometimes takes me for granted. She's my mother and I will do everything in my power to keep her happy but at the same time, I have to do things for myself as well. I want to work and have money of my own so I can't depend on her. I'm eighteen years old, I will be nineteen in September, I need a damn job. My momma taught me never to depend on anybody, she didn't prior to her stroke so why should I and I completely able to do it myself. I don't understand.

Anyway, I'm getting tired. I have a big day planned so, yeah... I'll check this spot out later.
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