Don't you hate when people get hipped onto shit that you been listening to for years? Wait lemme add to that.... and pretend that they been listening to him longer than you or the same time? Quoting shit from his current project but don't know shit about the albums that he put out before.
I find it funny how after one mixtape, niggas are going so hard for Drake. Granted, So Far Gone is the best mixtape so far compared to his others - this nigga is getting better and better but really, bitch you gon' act like you been rocking with him since the beginning? Let's not go there.
I been listening to dude since '06 when Trey Songz was featured on Replacement Girl. People dind't even know who he was, they never heard the song before until I had it on my iPod. I wasn't even listening to Trey for the most part because he was only singing the chorus and the bridge. Drizzy had the verses which striked my interest in him. Then Brand New when that dropped niggas was listening but not knowing that he was a rapper.
I'll give it to you - some (and I do mean SOME, very SOME) of ya'll knew who he was before he got on with Young Money but before then. Ya'll was not rocking with dude. So let's stop pretendin that you a die hard fan of this nigga after one mixtape. Jumping on the bandwagon when the shit damn near at the finish line. Bitch please.
Lyrically, he's a fuckin' genius. I don't care - this man is up there and he doesn't even have an album out yet. He got the hype like J. Hud did when she did Dream Girls and won an Oscar. I sincerely believe that once his album drops, it's over. Nobody is gonna be able to touch him - I honestly believe that because nobody is touching him now. Period.
I just had to get that off my chest because alot of people like to jump on shit when niggas start messing with big name people. Like for instance, I know alot of people that like Kid Cudi. I personally never heard of him prior to this year so I'm not even gone front, but I do like his song Day and Night. But that doesn't mean I'm gon' be a die hard fan and quoting this nigga in my damn Facebook status. Dick riding is for the bedroom ONLY!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
If He don't love you by now...
Last night had been uneventful. Nothing really happened throughout the day except the fact that I finally learned how to make baked chicken! That was probably the highlight. Mom's was acting like she didn't want to eat it though, whatever that's her. But please believe after it was done, she got her a few pieces and smashed on it. Baked chicken, green beans, and potato salad. I had bread while she had that PS. I do NOT like store bought potato salad, that shit is disgusting but she be killing it like it's really the business though.
Yesterday, my sister told me that she had cried. What for? She felt as if we were drifting apart. "Like after the time you came down here for the first time, we talked and then we just stopped talking for a long time... You didn't call me and I didn't call you. It's like a cycle and I hate goin through that." that really made me upset because I don't want her crying for/over me. But I told her things were slightly different now, I have more responsibility on my plate just like I did back then and us talking through all hours of the night was mainly the reason why I couldn't get up in the morning for classes. She doesn't go to school, she doesn't have that issue so she doesn't know. It's not totally her fault because I was on the phone with her too but at the same time, she should've hung up in my face and told me to go to bed.
After she got that out of her system, my younger cousin called me distraught and crying. So immediately I tell my sister I'll call you back and see what's up with her. Sometime last year she was acting like this - her baby daddy had her all fucked up in the mental. I told her straight up that she needed to let his behind go because all he is doing to her is making false promises. He barely comes to see his child, he always has some excuse about why or he doesn't give one at all, he doesn't do anything for him. He's giving her enough to hold onto to while he continues doing him and hurting her in the process. "I just want him to tell me that he doesn't love me anymore." She doesn't need him to tell her that - especially if she feels it in her heart. If she has to question his love for her then obviously it's not there, and I told her do you feel in your heart from his actions that he loves you. Survey says???? NO.
You'll never get over someone that you truly love, you'll just learn to cope and deal without it. My mom had to do it with my dad and people are dealing with it everyday. She wants someone to love her and be there for her but she needs to be there for herself first before she allows a man to do it for her. That way she can depict what is real and what is fake. And it isn't even about her anymore, she has a son to raise as well.
But after that, Mark finally got off of work and came over. We were chilling in the living room for the most part until I fell asleep on his lap. It seemed as soon as he came in, sat down and I got him some water; I was done. We were sleeping for a good minute until I told him to come to my room to sleep. It was nice. I like sleeping next to him - he doesn't snore or anything like that. The last time that I actually fallen asleep next to someone, comfortably, was Mack. He's another blog by himself though. Well yeah... he spent the night and left early in the morning because his asthma was messing up and he didn't have his inhaler.
Yesterday, my sister told me that she had cried. What for? She felt as if we were drifting apart. "Like after the time you came down here for the first time, we talked and then we just stopped talking for a long time... You didn't call me and I didn't call you. It's like a cycle and I hate goin through that." that really made me upset because I don't want her crying for/over me. But I told her things were slightly different now, I have more responsibility on my plate just like I did back then and us talking through all hours of the night was mainly the reason why I couldn't get up in the morning for classes. She doesn't go to school, she doesn't have that issue so she doesn't know. It's not totally her fault because I was on the phone with her too but at the same time, she should've hung up in my face and told me to go to bed.
After she got that out of her system, my younger cousin called me distraught and crying. So immediately I tell my sister I'll call you back and see what's up with her. Sometime last year she was acting like this - her baby daddy had her all fucked up in the mental. I told her straight up that she needed to let his behind go because all he is doing to her is making false promises. He barely comes to see his child, he always has some excuse about why or he doesn't give one at all, he doesn't do anything for him. He's giving her enough to hold onto to while he continues doing him and hurting her in the process. "I just want him to tell me that he doesn't love me anymore." She doesn't need him to tell her that - especially if she feels it in her heart. If she has to question his love for her then obviously it's not there, and I told her do you feel in your heart from his actions that he loves you. Survey says???? NO.
You'll never get over someone that you truly love, you'll just learn to cope and deal without it. My mom had to do it with my dad and people are dealing with it everyday. She wants someone to love her and be there for her but she needs to be there for herself first before she allows a man to do it for her. That way she can depict what is real and what is fake. And it isn't even about her anymore, she has a son to raise as well.
But after that, Mark finally got off of work and came over. We were chilling in the living room for the most part until I fell asleep on his lap. It seemed as soon as he came in, sat down and I got him some water; I was done. We were sleeping for a good minute until I told him to come to my room to sleep. It was nice. I like sleeping next to him - he doesn't snore or anything like that. The last time that I actually fallen asleep next to someone, comfortably, was Mack. He's another blog by himself though. Well yeah... he spent the night and left early in the morning because his asthma was messing up and he didn't have his inhaler.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Dreeeeeeeeeeeamin
Alright morning, evening, whatever.
Listen.. So, lately I've been listening to Day 26 and their new album Forever In a Day right? My favorite song so far has to be One Night Only. Anyway, in the mist of listening to that, why is Robert Curry (1/5) of Day 26 popping into my head constantly? I do not know this man and I didn't have any attraction towards him prior until I started listening to that song. So what in the fuckery?! I'm like "Fine, cool. Maybe it's the song that's making me like him" cause what else would it be? Okay so the etnire day goes well and I go to sleep. Why is this nigga in my dreams?! I'm like well damn - okay.
You know how some dreams just start randomly after the other one had ended or something? Well I don't remember the previous dream but I remember when it got to Robert. I was at their house (the one on MTV) just chilling, everybody was outside but the glass was sound proof so they couldn't hear us and vice versa. Alright, now the place is nasty like it always in and I'm lounging in somebody's bed just chilling. Robert comes in and shit, dressed down in some basketball shorts and a tee. He gets in the bed with me and we chillin. Then the dream goes to us fighting in the kitchen and to him trying to give me some protein shake to make me bulk up? WTF! I woke up after that but that dream was so random and damn stupid. Craziness.... But they're CD is hella nice, so go cop.
Oh! Mark didn't come over last night :-(. He wanted to but I told him to go on home since he was tired from work and that he could come over today and I'd cook for him. Aren't I the domestic one? I know.
Listen.. So, lately I've been listening to Day 26 and their new album Forever In a Day right? My favorite song so far has to be One Night Only. Anyway, in the mist of listening to that, why is Robert Curry (1/5) of Day 26 popping into my head constantly? I do not know this man and I didn't have any attraction towards him prior until I started listening to that song. So what in the fuckery?! I'm like "Fine, cool. Maybe it's the song that's making me like him" cause what else would it be? Okay so the etnire day goes well and I go to sleep. Why is this nigga in my dreams?! I'm like well damn - okay.
You know how some dreams just start randomly after the other one had ended or something? Well I don't remember the previous dream but I remember when it got to Robert. I was at their house (the one on MTV) just chilling, everybody was outside but the glass was sound proof so they couldn't hear us and vice versa. Alright, now the place is nasty like it always in and I'm lounging in somebody's bed just chilling. Robert comes in and shit, dressed down in some basketball shorts and a tee. He gets in the bed with me and we chillin. Then the dream goes to us fighting in the kitchen and to him trying to give me some protein shake to make me bulk up? WTF! I woke up after that but that dream was so random and damn stupid. Craziness.... But they're CD is hella nice, so go cop.
Oh! Mark didn't come over last night :-(. He wanted to but I told him to go on home since he was tired from work and that he could come over today and I'd cook for him. Aren't I the domestic one? I know.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
You can tell by my everday fits I ain't rich
Alright so... I haven't updated in a while. I know, sue me. But in between the time of my last update and currently. Nothing has really happened. Same situation, more people added to the equation. (Sidebar: Absolutely LOOOOOOOOOOVE 2Pac's I Get Around, one of the faves) I finally got my hair out of them damn micros, I'm excited that my hair comes borderline mid neck! Bald Head Bitches on Deck (BHBOD) lmao. Well I went to my best friend's mom shop to get everything relaxed and managable, $60.00 well spent mind you. But now I'm lookin' good but broke as hell, just like the average ninja in the neighborhoood. This weekend really motivated me to get a job, shit is not popping when you're broke seriously. I mean, you can find something to do but not really. I know one thing, I better have some money next weekend to go see Obsessed. That's all I'm saying. End.
Okay, going back to the statement about more people added to the equation. There's this guy name Mark. I think he's like twenty-two or twenty three, I really can't remember. But I wanna say twenty-two. Anyway, he's sooooooo chill and cool and SMEEEEXY! I'll try to put a picture up tonight, he's supposed to be coming over after work. I promised him I'd show him how to make Hamburger Helper. Seriously, it's a damn shame when a grown ass man can't make a simple meal for himself. I feel sorry for his insides, they probably all types of fucked up right now. But anyway, yeah... I like him, he's chill and we have fun. He's so anti-p.o.m.e. (product of my environment). You'd think he lived out far somewhere by the way he talks and dresses but no, this man lives in the heart of the hood and actually like two streets over from me exactly. Convient eh? *wink* lmao. Anyway yeah... hopefully he'll still be in these blogs on a more positive note.
Mike (from the last post) came over last night. He was sort of mad that he didn't get to see Gucci Mane cause guys had to be twenty-one and up to get into the club and he's only twenty. I personally don't think he would've missed anything. Club concerts are the WORST to go to, especially when it's rappers involved. He'd show up like an hour late and won't perform until an hour till the club is about to close. THEN he'd only do like two songs, WTF?! Please... I will not waste fifty dollars on that shit. Plus all the hood ass ghetto hood rat females and niggas will be in the building and somebody is gonna start fighting. That's a gurantee. Anyway, back to Mike. We basically kicked it outside because it was feeling so good out. His breath was smelling like greens though - not a good look but we still had fun. He drove me to McDonalds and got me something before he went home though. He wants to come see me tonight but I can't, Mark is coming overrrrr.
How does that make me look honestly? I'm not dating either one of them, they're technically in the same boat. I like them both and I enjoy they're company. Granted Mike my like me a bit more than I'm liking him but I'm hoping that will go down eventually until I'm ready to seriously talk to someone on that type level. And if I were, it would be Mark. He just has this thing about him that makes me attracted towards him. His aura is off the chain. Never mind that question, I don't even care lol.
Sooooo... Family Matters. Not the television show but my sister. I don't know if I said this in the last blog but oh well. I have a sister that lives in Atlanta, I have three other ones too but she's the main one I talk to on a regular basis. By regular basis I mean, every single day for hours at a time. Now I don't mind it because we'll always find something to talk about, but now it feels like I don't wanna talk to her everyday. Maybe it's things going on with my mother that's making me like that but whatever it is, her conversation with me doesn't really seem to matter anymore. As harsh as that sounds. I'm not saying that I don't wanna talk to her anymore because I do, I just think we need to reduce it to sometimes. But I can't tell her that because she'll take offense to what I say. I think southern people are more sensitive when it comes to certain than people up here. It's like, I'm not tryin to be mean but that's just how I'm feeling right now.
The thing that made me realize that though was when Mark had been chilling over here. We were watching Enough on TBS when she called but I missed it, so she called my house phone. I told her that i had company and she was like so... Granted, I said the same thing to her but I would be playing. So she got mad and hung up in my face. Like really? Damn. I feel like she don't respect me at all. I guess since I'm her little sister she doesn't have to but that's bullshit. Anyway, I'm gonna cool out on her for a minute.
Okay, going back to the statement about more people added to the equation. There's this guy name Mark. I think he's like twenty-two or twenty three, I really can't remember. But I wanna say twenty-two. Anyway, he's sooooooo chill and cool and SMEEEEXY! I'll try to put a picture up tonight, he's supposed to be coming over after work. I promised him I'd show him how to make Hamburger Helper. Seriously, it's a damn shame when a grown ass man can't make a simple meal for himself. I feel sorry for his insides, they probably all types of fucked up right now. But anyway, yeah... I like him, he's chill and we have fun. He's so anti-p.o.m.e. (product of my environment). You'd think he lived out far somewhere by the way he talks and dresses but no, this man lives in the heart of the hood and actually like two streets over from me exactly. Convient eh? *wink* lmao. Anyway yeah... hopefully he'll still be in these blogs on a more positive note.
Mike (from the last post) came over last night. He was sort of mad that he didn't get to see Gucci Mane cause guys had to be twenty-one and up to get into the club and he's only twenty. I personally don't think he would've missed anything. Club concerts are the WORST to go to, especially when it's rappers involved. He'd show up like an hour late and won't perform until an hour till the club is about to close. THEN he'd only do like two songs, WTF?! Please... I will not waste fifty dollars on that shit. Plus all the hood ass ghetto hood rat females and niggas will be in the building and somebody is gonna start fighting. That's a gurantee. Anyway, back to Mike. We basically kicked it outside because it was feeling so good out. His breath was smelling like greens though - not a good look but we still had fun. He drove me to McDonalds and got me something before he went home though. He wants to come see me tonight but I can't, Mark is coming overrrrr.
How does that make me look honestly? I'm not dating either one of them, they're technically in the same boat. I like them both and I enjoy they're company. Granted Mike my like me a bit more than I'm liking him but I'm hoping that will go down eventually until I'm ready to seriously talk to someone on that type level. And if I were, it would be Mark. He just has this thing about him that makes me attracted towards him. His aura is off the chain. Never mind that question, I don't even care lol.
Sooooo... Family Matters. Not the television show but my sister. I don't know if I said this in the last blog but oh well. I have a sister that lives in Atlanta, I have three other ones too but she's the main one I talk to on a regular basis. By regular basis I mean, every single day for hours at a time. Now I don't mind it because we'll always find something to talk about, but now it feels like I don't wanna talk to her everyday. Maybe it's things going on with my mother that's making me like that but whatever it is, her conversation with me doesn't really seem to matter anymore. As harsh as that sounds. I'm not saying that I don't wanna talk to her anymore because I do, I just think we need to reduce it to sometimes. But I can't tell her that because she'll take offense to what I say. I think southern people are more sensitive when it comes to certain than people up here. It's like, I'm not tryin to be mean but that's just how I'm feeling right now.
The thing that made me realize that though was when Mark had been chilling over here. We were watching Enough on TBS when she called but I missed it, so she called my house phone. I told her that i had company and she was like so... Granted, I said the same thing to her but I would be playing. So she got mad and hung up in my face. Like really? Damn. I feel like she don't respect me at all. I guess since I'm her little sister she doesn't have to but that's bullshit. Anyway, I'm gonna cool out on her for a minute.
Friday, April 17, 2009
<3 me now or <3 me never
Right now, at 3:32AM, I'm sitting on the phone with Mike. He's a new one, wants to be the only one but I'm seeing some traits in him that I don't like already. For instance, he seems like the type that wants me to about him and only him. Like, seriously, what the hell? No. I don't do that 'you are my life and what I breathe' for no man, boy, or companion. But he's nice aside from that, he drives so that's a plus. That sounded real Gold diggerish didn't it? Yeah, I know. But I'm not, I'm just saying it is nice to talk to a man that has a car and something to offer sometimes other than his penis.
Anyway, my mom came home yesterday. She was in the hospital for like three weeks because she had a stroke and I'm responsible for taking care of her until she gets a nurse that can be with her 24/7. Hopefully we'll get one that can be there like that because I start school in June plus I want to get a job since funds are gonna be non-existent at this point. Hell the only reason why I have Internet is because of someone around us. Honestly, I think my family sometimes takes me for granted. She's my mother and I will do everything in my power to keep her happy but at the same time, I have to do things for myself as well. I want to work and have money of my own so I can't depend on her. I'm eighteen years old, I will be nineteen in September, I need a damn job. My momma taught me never to depend on anybody, she didn't prior to her stroke so why should I and I completely able to do it myself. I don't understand.
Anyway, I'm getting tired. I have a big day planned so, yeah... I'll check this spot out later.
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Anyway, my mom came home yesterday. She was in the hospital for like three weeks because she had a stroke and I'm responsible for taking care of her until she gets a nurse that can be with her 24/7. Hopefully we'll get one that can be there like that because I start school in June plus I want to get a job since funds are gonna be non-existent at this point. Hell the only reason why I have Internet is because of someone around us. Honestly, I think my family sometimes takes me for granted. She's my mother and I will do everything in my power to keep her happy but at the same time, I have to do things for myself as well. I want to work and have money of my own so I can't depend on her. I'm eighteen years old, I will be nineteen in September, I need a damn job. My momma taught me never to depend on anybody, she didn't prior to her stroke so why should I and I completely able to do it myself. I don't understand.
Anyway, I'm getting tired. I have a big day planned so, yeah... I'll check this spot out later.
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